Disappointment

I should really get used to disappointment. Its something that I should know by now other than the depression. But I need to get used to this I guess. Just try and put on a smile and be happy when I can't. Thats why my thoughts lead me in places that they probably shouldn't go. But thats just me. I just need to get some of this stuff off my chest. Its so hard not being able to express stuff and things and its just ridiculous some of the stuff that happens here and stuff I can't get cause of fucking money. you know what I'm to the point I don't care any more about anything other than Josh and I. I had a hard life with my mom and now its still hard but its better here but I'm just more depressed....
Whatever.... Byes

FINALLY!!!

Well I am finally out of my moms house. It was a bunch of bull the stuff she said about me to my best friend. But then my mom turned her back on my best friend because she 'lied' to her instead of going to band practice with her husband and came over to my house. But things have been pretty good. I am going to start going to see my best friend more and have her come over and I go over to her house, but things have been kind of crazy so I haven't had her over or went over there so hopefully soon we can start doing that and things together again. My mom is pretty pissed at me for moving out but I don't care what she thinks any more because I'm with my sister now. And I am so much happier; even though I get depressed at points I am a lot happier. I get to spend the night at peoples houses and have people spend the night here. And I also get to see my fiance more and more all the time now. And I get to have him spend the night and I can spend the night at his house, like tomorrow I am going to Universal and Islands of Adventure with him and his mom and then I am going to spend the night. Because his mom has a biopsy in the morning (she thinks that she might have thyroid cancer) and then my best friend, her husband, Josh, Me, and Josh's mom are going to Blue Springs. I have never been and never has my bff. But I think that I am going to stop blabbing about everything and get a shower and get stuff together for tomorrow. Also I hope that I can start blogging more even though like noone follows me but thats okay it lets me get my venting and other things out and lets me express myself. :) Also Josh got me a laptop cord so now I can get back online :D.. Ok before I start telling my life story and other stuff or start rambling more than what I already am. SHOWER TIME BYEZ :x..

Death

Rest In Peace Justin Watson he killed himself on 12/3/2010
We will all miss you very much and we all love you very much

Update on Moving

Well I am slowly moving into my sister's house because my mother still does not know that I am moving out. I get to bring all 70 something of my books. My sister said that she had already made room and then when I told her how many books that I had she said that would have to makes some more room LMFAO! But she said that I could bring my 26inch flat screen with me. So that means for big items I'll have: my 26inch flat screen tv, my guitar, my 70something books, my hamper full of ALL of my clothes (I've gotten rid of some already and I have some to keep here for my mother and sister), and boxes. Those are what I have for big things that I have to take with me. But that is when they come to help me I guess. Its gonna be hard but I need more space, freedom, to go somewhere more often, walk around town, hang with friends, don't get critized with everything to do, don't have to ask permission all the time to go do something with people, and to just have a life. I know this is a lot of rambling but it has to be said a lot of it. Well that is all that I have basically got to say about it. And I think that i have actually typed this in record time for me I think without to many distractions or mistakes.
Well byes for now :)

Thanksgiving Depressed & Up to Date

Well today is Thanksgiving.. Well the end of the day of it. I didn't have a good day, but Thanksgiving is never a good day for me. I've been depressed got yelled at and so on and so forth. But there has been some good things that have happened to me. One thing is that a couple weeks ago I made a friend. She and I have LOADS! in common. We became best friends instantly; and she is moving down here the 2nd of December =D. Also another good thing is that I went to Universal & Islands of Adventure and finally got to ride all the Harry Potter rides and I even got the front seat on Rock It. Oh my gosh it was AWESOME!!!!!!!! LoL I also got my hair done for free. Another good thing is that I had pre-ordered the cd and dvd from Shinedown and I also got a shirt with it ^_^ and they had come the day before the release date; I was really happy. And the last thing is that I am moving out of my mom's house because I want freedom and not treated like a 5 years old and getting yelled at every 5 minutes for something that I do wrong or something that I don't do and blah blah blah. Well that's about it. for now. Until next time when I remember to update again. Byes!

New

Well nothing new has been going on except that I have been doing not that much with no school for me yet. But I have to have surgery on my hand so they can take some of the muscle outta my hand cause its too big. But I can't wait to go to college in the spring so then I don't have to worry bout getting bored and bored all the days that I have been home. Also this month I got a new phone and I'm now with Sprint cause ATT was too expensive. But I get a lot more with Sprint and I don't have to pay for it my fiance is. But hopefully some time this month I am going to get my ears pierced. I've wanted them pierced for a while. But I am 18 I can do whatever I want.. Except drink XD but thats okay with me. Well that's all I've basically got to say now. Until next time. Bye Bye

Wow

I've graduated and there is nothing in this world that makes me any happier to be out of that hell hole but I miss it too. Sorry haven't posted I kind of forgot I had a blogger :p I also got a laptop ^_^ well thats all that is mostly need to be said I'll prob think of some stuff later.