I should really get used to disappointment. Its something that I should know by now other than the depression. But I need to get used to this I guess. Just try and put on a smile and be happy when I can't. Thats why my thoughts lead me in places that they probably shouldn't go. But thats just me. I just need to get some of this stuff off my chest. Its so hard not being able to express stuff and things and its just ridiculous some of the stuff that happens here and stuff I can't get cause of fucking money. you know what I'm to the point I don't care any more about anything other than Josh and I. I had a hard life with my mom and now its still hard but its better here but I'm just more depressed....
Whatever.... Byes
